It has been 3 weeks since I got back from vacation and it feels like all I have done since then is work. Playing catch up, preparing for some big meetings and kicking off a couple of projects just to list a few things. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind working hard or putting in long hours. It just feels as though I haven’t done much else with my life besides work. So much so that it is affecting how I feel. I lost sight of my own goals and forgot to do even the little things that make me happy.
I have been working from 8 am to sometimes 7 or 8 at night. To add to that, it takes at least 30 to 45 minutes to get home. By that time, I just want to lie on the couch and do nothing. Feeling exhausted, brain dead and cross eyed from looking at a screen all day. What happens next is a snowball effect of negative things. I don’t cook; therefore, I grab things on the go and eat like crap. I haven’t been to the gym which causes me to feel sluggish and, according to my scale, gain a few pounds. Furthermore, I haven’t been able to use my nights for the things I need or like to do; meet up with friends, grocery shop, look for new recipes that I could try out and many other things on my list.
I know I’m the only one to blame for how I feel. Sometimes it’s just mind over matter. Don’t tell yourself that you are tired and just keep going. It is definitely a notion that holds true in itself. Perhaps I need to work on my time management. I just don’t want to be in a cycle where I go through this in loops or where I am not working towards my goals. Obviously, I want to do well at work and do whatever it takes to grow professionally. However, I don’t want it to be at the cost of how I feel.
As in my first post, “The moment it hits you!,” I set myself up for a journey this year and I am planning on sticking with it. I have been taking some steps to live a more fulfilled life but I definitely still have a long way to go. One thing I do know is that I need to make more time for myself in order to do the things I want to do.